one could be mistaken
for the other.
anxiety
panic
attacks?
2.28.2009
2.26.2009
9,8,7,6,5,4,3,2,1
NINE things about yourself:
1. My eyes are green and turn to hazel sometimes.
2. I have an attraction to most male teachers.
3. I have loads of clothes, but only wear about 1/4 of them.
4. My hair is practically dead.
5. I listen to shitty music and amazing music.
6. I'm excited for my future.
7. Freshman year has been a blur of normalicy.
8. There's been months were all I've had for dinner each night is TV dinners.
9. I'm really bad at drawing.... anything.
EIGHT ways to win my heart:
1. Have a cute smile.
2. Know my turn ons.
3. Be outgoing.
4. Optimistic.
5. Take me to Disney and go on my favorite rides with me.
6. Go to a concert with me and protect me.
7. Be gross and silly, but in a tolerable way.
8. Not be ashamed to kiss me in public.
SEVEN things that cross your mind a lot:
1. This one girl.
2. My previous grounding.
3. Wow are they looking at me?
4. I wanna go to Disney.
5. Are my boobs hanging out?
6. I miss her/him.
7. My hair is knotted up.
SIX things you do before you go to bed:
1. Wash my face.
2. Brush my teeth.
3. Clean my nose ring.
4. Put on pajamas.
5. Turn on the TV.
6. Take a shower.
FIVE people who mean a lot.
1. Noelle
2. Pearl
3. Apryl
4. Sophie
5. Mom
FOUR things you’re wearing right now.
1. Bootie shorts
2. Shirt
3. ...
4. ...
THREE songs that fit your life perfectly:
1. Jesus Of Suburbia - Green Day
2. Savannah - Uh Oh! Explosion
3. Flowing - 311
TWO things you want to do before you die:
1. Travel the world.
2. Be completely in love and physically with the person a lot.
ONE confession:
1. I'm attracted to so many people it gets annoying.
1. My eyes are green and turn to hazel sometimes.
2. I have an attraction to most male teachers.
3. I have loads of clothes, but only wear about 1/4 of them.
4. My hair is practically dead.
5. I listen to shitty music and amazing music.
6. I'm excited for my future.
7. Freshman year has been a blur of normalicy.
8. There's been months were all I've had for dinner each night is TV dinners.
9. I'm really bad at drawing.... anything.
EIGHT ways to win my heart:
1. Have a cute smile.
2. Know my turn ons.
3. Be outgoing.
4. Optimistic.
5. Take me to Disney and go on my favorite rides with me.
6. Go to a concert with me and protect me.
7. Be gross and silly, but in a tolerable way.
8. Not be ashamed to kiss me in public.
SEVEN things that cross your mind a lot:
1. This one girl.
2. My previous grounding.
3. Wow are they looking at me?
4. I wanna go to Disney.
5. Are my boobs hanging out?
6. I miss her/him.
7. My hair is knotted up.
SIX things you do before you go to bed:
1. Wash my face.
2. Brush my teeth.
3. Clean my nose ring.
4. Put on pajamas.
5. Turn on the TV.
6. Take a shower.
FIVE people who mean a lot.
1. Noelle
2. Pearl
3. Apryl
4. Sophie
5. Mom
FOUR things you’re wearing right now.
1. Bootie shorts
2. Shirt
3. ...
4. ...
THREE songs that fit your life perfectly:
1. Jesus Of Suburbia - Green Day
2. Savannah - Uh Oh! Explosion
3. Flowing - 311
TWO things you want to do before you die:
1. Travel the world.
2. Be completely in love and physically with the person a lot.
ONE confession:
1. I'm attracted to so many people it gets annoying.
Compassion.
It's everywhere in words and tone.
I wish I knew what I was talking about.
I have word garbage.
I wish I knew what I was talking about.
I have word garbage.
2.25.2009
Infatuation.
She's amazing, they're amazing, amazing, amazing, amazing.
Really, I'd like to be with somebody.
Emotionally, physically I'm ready.
The world isn't.
Love, love, love, love.
It's everywhere.
Everybody's doing it.
My love lies within the bonds of friendship. Something so much looked over and not put into perspective.
What would we be without the people who got us here?
Just live.
2.24.2009
Kah-peesh.
I haven't truly blogged in a while.
There's been a lack of subjects, lack of time, lack of motivation.
These hormones will get the best of me, I swear they will.
More and more everyday something feels more and more the same and more and more different.
On the bright side, I've been getting all A's.
Despite the one B and fucking F.
Pardon my french, but it's aggravating... my lack of math skills that is.
Maybe I'll start blogging again when I have something real to talk about?
Not just rambling teenage nonsense.
Kapppish?
Kapppppppppppish.
There's been a lack of subjects, lack of time, lack of motivation.
These hormones will get the best of me, I swear they will.
More and more everyday something feels more and more the same and more and more different.
On the bright side, I've been getting all A's.
Despite the one B and fucking F.
Pardon my french, but it's aggravating... my lack of math skills that is.
Maybe I'll start blogging again when I have something real to talk about?
Not just rambling teenage nonsense.
Kapppish?
Kapppppppppppish.
2.21.2009
2.16.2009
Urban terms
I had fun with a few of these.
Noelle
A superior level of intoxication, resulting in belligerence or some sort of devine sexual activity. The last stage of drunken-ness before passing out.
I drank until I was so Noelle that everyone looked sexy.
If this party sucks, I'll drink until I'm Noelle and make it fun
lol theory
The theory that the internet phrase lol,meaning "laugh out loud", can be placed at any part in any sentence and make said sentence lose all credibilty and seriousness.
ex 1
Doc: We need to operate on your colon lol, you have cancer.
ex 2
Jesus: Take this all of you and eat it, it is my body, lol.
ex 3
Me: Will you marry me? Lol.
^Lol theory in action
retro-cringe
When you remember, the morning after, something you said, wrote, did, didn't say, etc., the day before..
'I texted undying love to that chick at the party when I got home.. This morning, I'm having retro-cringe, bigtime..'
bedgasm
A feeling of complete and utter euphoria which peaks when climbing into bed at the end of an 18-hour workday, a long road trip or hours of extremely strenuous physical activity. Under perfect conditions, the physical release has been likened to that of an intense sexual experience.
It was a three hour drive in the middle of the night, I could barely stay awake. When I got home, I climbed under the covers and had a ten-minute bedgasm.
Noelle
A superior level of intoxication, resulting in belligerence or some sort of devine sexual activity. The last stage of drunken-ness before passing out.
I drank until I was so Noelle that everyone looked sexy.
If this party sucks, I'll drink until I'm Noelle and make it fun
lol theory
The theory that the internet phrase lol,meaning "laugh out loud", can be placed at any part in any sentence and make said sentence lose all credibilty and seriousness.
ex 1
Doc: We need to operate on your colon lol, you have cancer.
ex 2
Jesus: Take this all of you and eat it, it is my body, lol.
ex 3
Me: Will you marry me? Lol.
^Lol theory in action
retro-cringe
When you remember, the morning after, something you said, wrote, did, didn't say, etc., the day before..
'I texted undying love to that chick at the party when I got home.. This morning, I'm having retro-cringe, bigtime..'
bedgasm
A feeling of complete and utter euphoria which peaks when climbing into bed at the end of an 18-hour workday, a long road trip or hours of extremely strenuous physical activity. Under perfect conditions, the physical release has been likened to that of an intense sexual experience.
It was a three hour drive in the middle of the night, I could barely stay awake. When I got home, I climbed under the covers and had a ten-minute bedgasm.
Censorship
they call it art.
term of the day:
Hello list
The list of people you have to or want to say "hello" to on a daily basis. Especially relevant for students in university buildings, or coworkers in a workplace. Some people might decide to put you on their hello lists, even if they aren't on yours! Typically, reciprocity is expected.
lyprax in raw
she's a beauty.
but more than a pretty face.
a soul brighter than the sun.
a brain to match everything else.
wisdom is something that comes easily to her.
beyond her years, most definitely.
never underestimate.
but more than a pretty face.
a soul brighter than the sun.
a brain to match everything else.
wisdom is something that comes easily to her.
beyond her years, most definitely.
never underestimate.
Flashback to the future
Isn't it odd how certain songs can remind you of a person, place or time in your life?
Sometimes my flashbacks come on so strong I can almost feel like I'm there.
When I wake up from this I obviously become nostalgic.
I just miss them so fucking much words can't even describe.
These are the girls who I know will never leave my side.
As much as we may loose contact during the year summers bring us together.
Mentally we are all so connected it's almost telepathic.
I would be lost without them. Completely and utterly lost.
I love you.
Sometimes my flashbacks come on so strong I can almost feel like I'm there.
When I wake up from this I obviously become nostalgic.
I just miss them so fucking much words can't even describe.
These are the girls who I know will never leave my side.
As much as we may loose contact during the year summers bring us together.
Mentally we are all so connected it's almost telepathic.
I would be lost without them. Completely and utterly lost.
I love you.
Old dog, New tricks.
It's funny the infatuation people can have.
Sometimes annoying, sometimes amusing, sometimes pathetic.
I try to avoid "crushes". It doesn't always work, but for the meantime it's done me well
" I reach in my chest and try to find a heart beat"
http://www.myspace.com/closebutnotquite
http://www.myspace.com/closebutnotquite
http://www.myspace.com/closebutnotquite
represent.
Sometimes annoying, sometimes amusing, sometimes pathetic.
I try to avoid "crushes". It doesn't always work, but for the meantime it's done me well
" I reach in my chest and try to find a heart beat"
http://www.myspace.com/closebutnotquite
http://www.myspace.com/closebutnotquite
http://www.myspace.com/closebutnotquite
represent.
livelavalive
http://www.youtube.com/user/livelavalive
http://www.youtube.com/user/livelavalive
http://www.youtube.com/user/livelavalive
2.15.2009
Tomorrows
I waste my time trying to find inspiration
We're running out of tomorrows
These are moments cherished forever
write,read,play.
We're running out of tomorrows
These are moments cherished forever
write,read,play.
Image
it all sprouts from how one views ones self.
lifes are built around it.
"hold your head high like if it rained it wouldn't bother you"
Taste Of Chaos
Chaos in a bubble.
The Palladium is a nice stadium, strict security though.
"There are no escorts!"
Damn my lack of a vip bracelet.
The heaps and heaps of 13 year old girls blowing out my ear drums was bothersome, but worth it.
It was kind of impossible to get pictures because my camera died before I could even use it.
I wanted my fisheye because I was up against the barricade so that would have been some fucking dope ass pictures!
Oh well, here's one of the videos.
link.
It's horrible quality but it was taken with my phone, so what can you expect?
The Palladium is a nice stadium, strict security though.
"There are no escorts!"
Damn my lack of a vip bracelet.
The heaps and heaps of 13 year old girls blowing out my ear drums was bothersome, but worth it.
It was kind of impossible to get pictures because my camera died before I could even use it.
I wanted my fisheye because I was up against the barricade so that would have been some fucking dope ass pictures!
Oh well, here's one of the videos.
link.
It's horrible quality but it was taken with my phone, so what can you expect?
2.14.2009
spilled her guts in cursive
myspace.com/gymclassheroes
the words have me spun.
"you cant be let down if you dont expect the world"
the words have me spun.
"you cant be let down if you dont expect the world"
valentines day
to some its singles awareness.
ive spent my years being hung up about not having a valentine.
this year im over it, im going to be happy either way.
i dont have anybody to spend it with, but tonight will make up for it.
"You've got to trust your instinct
And let go of regret
You've got to bet on yourself now start
'Cause that's your best bet "
listen to 311. spread the positivity.
ive spent my years being hung up about not having a valentine.
this year im over it, im going to be happy either way.
i dont have anybody to spend it with, but tonight will make up for it.
"You've got to trust your instinct
And let go of regret
You've got to bet on yourself now start
'Cause that's your best bet "
listen to 311. spread the positivity.
Ideas
Inspired or not
I always have something to say
Even the most intelligent comment won't boost my credibility
It's nothing really, just intimidation and writers block.
I always have something to say
Even the most intelligent comment won't boost my credibility
It's nothing really, just intimidation and writers block.
2.11.2009
Apologies.
This blog has been quite dull the past few days, I know.
I've been sick with the flu and with that I am sorry for not updating.
I've also been stricken with this awful writer's block, you'll have to forgive me.
I will give you a picture though, something worth looking at in my opinion.
I thought it was neat.
I've been sick with the flu and with that I am sorry for not updating.
I've also been stricken with this awful writer's block, you'll have to forgive me.
I will give you a picture though, something worth looking at in my opinion.
I thought it was neat.
2.03.2009
Midnight Swim.
I remember that summer, and how little time we spent together. Two jobs and an addiction kept you far. That night was rare, just me, you, and a television set to keep us occupied. I recall the steady beating of your heart and the comfort of our father-daughter relationship.
Thats when your phone rang. I could hear a voice on the other end, high pitched and angry. You told me to stay where I was, and you would be right back. When the door opened in came two more people, my brother and her. She threw groceries down on the floor. Jerked open cabinents and slammed them shut. My nine year old eyes were curious, and hurt. She meant more to you than your kids?
I packed a bag and grabbed my brother, neither of you noticed. With crying a baby in my arms, and the sounds of glass shattering from behind the door, I did what I thought was best. Ran down to the community pool. I cradled my brother close to me and cried until nothing else came out.
Eventually you came down with red and puffy eyes. I wanted to go to Grandma's. You said the night was almost over and they would be asleep. I thought, so why aren't I?
Thats when your phone rang. I could hear a voice on the other end, high pitched and angry. You told me to stay where I was, and you would be right back. When the door opened in came two more people, my brother and her. She threw groceries down on the floor. Jerked open cabinents and slammed them shut. My nine year old eyes were curious, and hurt. She meant more to you than your kids?
I packed a bag and grabbed my brother, neither of you noticed. With crying a baby in my arms, and the sounds of glass shattering from behind the door, I did what I thought was best. Ran down to the community pool. I cradled my brother close to me and cried until nothing else came out.
Eventually you came down with red and puffy eyes. I wanted to go to Grandma's. You said the night was almost over and they would be asleep. I thought, so why aren't I?
Cigarette burns.
Nothing is more obvious than
Love&Lust.
Everybody comprehends on one level or another what this means.
What is this life passing me by?
Love&Lust.
Everybody comprehends on one level or another what this means.
What is this life passing me by?
Dramatized for affect.
I realized today I'm not as average as I thought I was.
So many people are worried about who likes who and who does what and who hates who. It gets confusing. They all start meshing together.
#1) Fakers.
Half of these girls are fake to each others face for what? Nothing.
#2) Fucking.
Fourteen year olds having sex? I'm sorry if you are concerned about hating somebody because they flirt with others, you aren't mature enough to have sex.
#3) Friends.
These girls say they are all "friends". What does that mean? They have no idea.
The three F's.
I can't stand my generation.
Absolutely and positively ridiculous.
Sure I might fall into some immature behavior from now and then but teenagers need to get a reality check.
The world doesn't revolve around you.
Rock Opera?
For my Film Adaptation class I think I might use some of these lyrics to start my own film.
I've always been in love with these words. Many may call Green Day "sell outs" but they write lyrics that I can relate to and that is something that I appreciate more than most people can.
Lyrics here!
This is my favorite video.
I've always been in love with these words. Many may call Green Day "sell outs" but they write lyrics that I can relate to and that is something that I appreciate more than most people can.
Lyrics here!
This is my favorite video.
Devotion.
When I want something I normally try everything in my right power to get it.
I've been devoting myself towards school more and more everyday and it feels empowering.
I always thought there were more important things than school and grades (which there are) but I like learning.
I hate homework and studying but I've come to accept it as a part of life.
I figure, I'm going to have to deal with this for AT LEAST the next 6 years of my life, so why not start to appreciate it?
My life is turing around a bit. It's harder in some aspects but I feel useful for once. I'm not a lazy bum (well yes I am, but not as much.)
My creativity is still lacking.
I promise one day this blog will be exciting again.
One day.
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